I know I'm in my own world... it's okay, they know me here

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A beautiful, aching post-apocalyptic Supernatural/SGA crossover, the sort that crawls into your chest and stays a while, lingering in the best possible way.


And All the World Beneath by seperis. Summary: Dean remembers Texas as blackland stretching in marker-thick strips of vivid brown and black, broken with the sprawling metroplexes of Dallas and San Antonio and Houston; farms spread with the yellow tops of maize waving in pre-autumn winds, threshers moving complacently through the fields with drowsy men in hats waving at the road. He remembers green and gold fields dotted with cows, half-year calves running on the outskirts of the herds. He remembers these were what he saw between jobs, lives being lived that had nothing to do with creeping twilight and sleeping only behind salt circles and ritual wards.


Tags: supernatural, sga, slash, gen, genre:horror, fic, futurefic, crossover, crossover:sga, crossover:supernatural, a:seperis

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(Post title will make more sense if you know BSL. Like what I do. Had my exam this week and got 15/18, which is precisely the pass mark, so unless I get moderated down, I've passed my 101! Only have 102 and 103 left this academic year. 'Only', she says...)

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The Devil's Gate by hesychasm. Summary: She'd always known she'd make her way there one day.


An amazing, long and intricate crossover, fusing the two universes and their inhabitants together so well that you really get absorbed into it. I'm not usually a great reader of femslash, but I loved this. Quick technical question, btw - do people usually spell it femslash, or femmeslash? Spelling and grammar nazis need to know!


Tags: buffy, angel, supernatural, crossover, crossover:supernatural, crossover:buffy, faith/jo, femslash, fic, jossverse, a:hesychasm

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And lo, wickedkitty said unto me, "You should totally make wallpapers."

So I went forth and produced wallpapers. And here-th they are-th :)

( 3 Supernatural wallpapers )

So today I've been thinking about what makes me read certain fics and what makes me click the back button on my browser, and why sometimes going back to a fic you loved makes you frown and say, 'huh, you know, I don't actually want to read this fic now.'

I'm going to talk about my thoughts, so if anyone feels they disagree, I'm not dissing you or your favourite pairing or type of fic or whatever, and please feel free to comment and discuss. I don't get to do this sort of thing any more, eyeballs are pretty cut and dried when it comes to your own inner monologue :D

For instance, then, after rereading The Mirror of Maybe up-to-date - which is a very good Harry/Snape fic, by the way, if you haven't read it, and it's worth a try even if you're not a fan of the pairing, which I wasn't before this - I've been looking for Harry/Snape fic to read and basically being picky about it.

I am willing to read this but not willing to read other fics (I, of course, don't tag fics I don't like, so I don't have one to put here just yet. Maybe if I find one later I'll fill in the blank.) If I'm reading Harry/Snape, it can't be fluffy, or really particularly light at all, because it just DOESN'T WORK. It has to be hard, and painful, and twisted but right at the same time. Something has to go wrong for it to go right for them as a pairing. (That said, The Mirror of Maybe doesn't exactly fit these criteria. But it has other things going for it, and Midnight Blue makes the pairing work. So I'm perfectly happy to read any of it I can get my greasy mitts on. I wish she updated more than once a year. I kid you not.)

Take Heroes fandom - I'm only willing to read Nathan/Peter, at least at the moment. Why? Because they're the characters I'm interested in, and because they have so much screen chemistry it makes my teeth ache. I love the other characters - in fact, there is not one I'd out and out get rid of - but I don't actually want to know about their sex lives. I do want to know more about Nathan and Peter's dynamic, because there is so much there under the surface, hidden from plain sight, that I feel like I'm picking up on. There are too many characters for an individual rundown, but my immediate thoughts - Hiro is too cute for me to want to consider his sex life, and the person Claire has the most chemistry with is Peter, but not in the same incestuous they-could-actually-go-there way that Peter has chemistry with Nathan. And that's fine, because she's pretty awesome all on her own. (Well, truth be told, I wrote a Nathan/Claire/Peter smutlet for the Heroes Pornathon a while back. So basically I'm good at breaking my own rules.) Again though, for me Heroes is not a fluffy fandom. It doesn't really work for me in fic. While there are probably even fics I've tagged that are sort of fluffy, it's not what I'm looking for.

I suppose what I'm really saying is that, with fanfic, I need to feel like it fits with the show or books or whatever before I can be comfortable enough to immerse myself in it. Stargate Atlantis fandom can get away with the most outrageous crack, because there is no limit on the crazy you can inflict there. (Though I seem to have gone off SGA fic lately. No idea why.) Supernatural - yes, crack, but not really fluff. (Sam and Dean are another pair that are so wound up in one another that fic really has to make sense to me before I'll read it, because their dynamic is so set in my head. I can imagine them killing for one another and not batting an eyelid, time and time again, and that's not fluffy. It's heartrending and breathtaking when it's done right, but it's never fluffy.)

I won't even go into the topics of grammar and spelling for now, as I suspect Sam is coming to pick me up to drag me out to Carnibar for the evening. Maybe I'll come back and expand this later. Until then :D

There's apparently some question over whether Supernatural is going to get another season. The producer guy is saying 50/50. This, of course, is not good enough to make me happy, because I love this show like woah. So, if you watch the show (or even if you don't but feel like helping out another fandom), head over to promote_spn and do some petitions or polls or something, help to boost numbers and show the network it ought to be renewed. (And really, if you don't watch it, why the hell not? It's awesome! And also, Jenson Ackles and Jared Padalecki are very, very nice to look at, know what I'm saying?)

Today I started writing my SGA McShep story for the under_mistletoe challenge. Yay! It actually went well and I wrote a lot of words!

No Mourning Tree, but, y'know, um... *runs away to avoid making excuses*

My leg really hurts because I increased the weight on the adductor machine at the gym yesterday and so today I am hobbling around everywhere going 'OW FUCKING OW STUPID FUCKING LEG' as I walk (but only when nobody else is around)

And I also caught up on Supernatural, because I had it but hadn't watched it, and it is still AWESOME. And the end of ep three was so Wincestuous I could cry (in a good way, which many of you will think is creepy but THEY ARE SO RIGHT I DON'T CARE THAT IT IS WRONG WRONG WRONG!) Jenson Ackles is veeeeeeery nice to look at, also. I like his shoulders *beams*

I haven't updated in a few days, huh? Well, I've been watching a lot of DVDs recently. I'm trying to get through some before I go away so I have less to cart along with me (though I keep accidentally ordering more because I have absolutely no willpower whatsoever.) I'm watching Medium at the moment which I'm liking, but I'm not mega-enthused about it like I get with some things. It's fun, it's cool, it's just not obsession material. Now, House was AWESOME. And one of my online accidental purchases was the second season of that, along with the complete first season of Supernatural, which I have been heard describing as 'the show that is so cool that GOD want to watch it all the time even though he ALREADY KNOWS WHAT HAPPENS.'

Seriously, it has Jensen Ackles and Jared Padalecki in leather with big-ass sexy guns killing monsters. What more do you need?

My life in brief, other than fannishness:

Had a bit of a freak-out after actually meeting Dad's new girlfriend Gail because theoretically it's fine but really it's kinda weird. He was out I think 5/7 nights last week until way after I'd gone to sleep (after midnight) and I felt like I never saw him and he acted differently and it was really getting me into a tizzy. But I talked to him about it and now I feel better and hopefully I'll be fine now. I just still miss Mum, you know? So seeing him with someone else being happy is kinda whacked.

Lucy started going to school again but is either ill again or not making an effort and of course it's the days when I'm supposed to be taking her and I want her to go so she doesn't miss the year and it's stressing Dad out and it sucks. Dan, the boyfriend man, is coming over this afternoon so I'm guessing I'll be making myself scarce upstairs again. I'll take DVDs and laptop and hole up for a while, it'll be fine :)

Jasper is, as always, cute as hell.

I'm getting nervous about going to university now. Will I make friends? Will somebody steal my crockery? Will I remember to take all the stuff I need? Damn, I still have to call the NHS to make sure they give me my bursary, dammit, because they've based their 'sorry, no' on last year when Dad was actually working and this year we have basically no income over than Mum's pension so they should PAY UP, GODDAMNIT. Also have to call two other places. I hate phone calls. I hate talking to people on the phone. HATEITHATEITHATEIT. Don't wanna. But I gotta. So... crap.