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I dream, but not of Jeannie
Jan. 5th, 2006 10:38 pmI've been dreaming recently... I think because my sleep pattern has changed so I wake up at a time when I can remember my dreams...
Last night I dreamt that I kept seeing Mum outside my house looking in at us through the windows. Nobody else could see her, and every time I ran outside screaming for her she vanished right in front of my eyes. She was wearing her black coat with the red lining and the make-up she always used to wear and smelled like Estee Lauder, because that's my 'mother smell'. But she always vanished, and I was left standing on the lawn in the snow confused and upset and alone.
Some days it hurts more than others.
Last night I dreamt that I kept seeing Mum outside my house looking in at us through the windows. Nobody else could see her, and every time I ran outside screaming for her she vanished right in front of my eyes. She was wearing her black coat with the red lining and the make-up she always used to wear and smelled like Estee Lauder, because that's my 'mother smell'. But she always vanished, and I was left standing on the lawn in the snow confused and upset and alone.
Some days it hurts more than others.
