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taharielI practice my flute more now than I ever did when I had lessons. (Mostly because I have the 'Phantom of the Opera' sheet music book.) But my Dad doesn't seem to understand that when your child asks you what you think of their playing, the answer is always 'sounds good'.
La la la... not much going on except impalpable rage, I guess. Today just kinda sucked. Small things building upon one another, y'know, along with stress. It's like, when I was going for the bus, I nearly bit Becca's head off because she did that thing where you tap someone on the opposite shoulder so that they look to see and you're not there, you know? And Becca's a very good friend but I absolutely in that moment wanted to yell 'don't fucking touch me' because when I'm that mad I just want everyone to stay the hell away from me, which is hard at school. So I had my music on on the bus all the way home the highest I've ever had it, ie the kind of loud that you do when you're somewhere noisy but when you get home if you forget to adjust it bursts your eardrums.
I just want everything to be over with so I can finally just not have to do anything and let everything go. I just need to have some time where nobody is around and I can sit down and fall to pieces without being watched. That's all I really want right now.
La la la... not much going on except impalpable rage, I guess. Today just kinda sucked. Small things building upon one another, y'know, along with stress. It's like, when I was going for the bus, I nearly bit Becca's head off because she did that thing where you tap someone on the opposite shoulder so that they look to see and you're not there, you know? And Becca's a very good friend but I absolutely in that moment wanted to yell 'don't fucking touch me' because when I'm that mad I just want everyone to stay the hell away from me, which is hard at school. So I had my music on on the bus all the way home the highest I've ever had it, ie the kind of loud that you do when you're somewhere noisy but when you get home if you forget to adjust it bursts your eardrums.
I just want everything to be over with so I can finally just not have to do anything and let everything go. I just need to have some time where nobody is around and I can sit down and fall to pieces without being watched. That's all I really want right now.
