tahariel: (This Mortal Armour - Shield)
Decided freaking out about my writing by myself was not really very helpful or productive, so I'm going to post the project I'm currently working on here, and I'd really appreciate it if people could take the time to read it and give me a little feedback? Any level of response is fine, just need some reassurance that it's not total pants.

ETA 13/7/10: now updated with additional crazy!

This Mortal Armour )
tahariel: (Submerged)
Gacked from Ionaonie:

Take one sentence from every work in progress on your computer I might not have kept to one sentence exactly either. Um. At all. Maybe more like one short paragraph? *FAILS*

I included old novel projects, since I'll look at them occasionally and poke them with a stick to see if they're well and truly dead yet or not. )
tahariel: (The Night Tower - canals and drawbridges)
Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
101,729 / 120,000

120,000 words is a total guesstimate, but I do still have to write a few more parts before the Exciting! Conclusion! so it's probably a good one. Anyway, yay!

Today I'm going to go see Canterbury Cathedral down in town. If I don't go I'll be annoyed at myself later, even if I do feel like being a bit of a hermit today. Maybe go to the cinema to see Indy IV, too, but maybe Ill do that later in the week.

Dad told me on the phone on Friday that he and Gail have decided to set a date for the wedding! They're sick of waiting for the housing market, and they'll sort out whatever logistical problems this causes afterwards. Of course, typically, they decided to have it in early November, which is when I told them not to because I'm going to be on placement God knows where, so now I'm going to have to go to Gail Stephenson and beg for help on being close to home for this one, especially since I'm going to have to take a day or two off placement for it and they add up to marks this time. Dammit, Dad! I love you but this is aggravating!
tahariel: (TNT - the boundless deep)
I cracked 100,000 words on The Night Tower this morning.

tahariel: (The Night Tower - canals and drawbridges)
I thought of this while swimming today - I plan to write it up into a proper short story type of thing later, but thought I'd put it up here in its raw form and see what you thought. It's a folkloric tale from Va'andosa, the country my novel project The Night Tower is set in. Let me know what you think!

The Eternal Swimmer - a Va'andosi Folktale

There was once a sailor aboard a merchant ship who, on quarrelling with his shipmate, cast him overboard in a storm, where the other man drowned. Nobody saw what he had done, and the sailor believed that he had escaped his just fate.

But that night, a knock came sounding at the door to the berthing deck, and when the cabin boy got up to open it, a woman stood in the doorway, her hair in wet tangles around her face and eyes blazing with an unholy light.

"Who has thrown my son into the ocean, and left him there to drown?"

The sailor said nothing, while all around him his shipmates awoke and cried out in fear, as she stalked amongst their hammocks, the cold wind coming through the open door setting them to swaying rough from side ot side.

"Who has thrown my son into the sea, and raised not a hand to help him?"

The sailor said nothing.

"Who is that threw my son into the deeps, to make food for fish and worms?" she asked a third time, and stopped beside the sailor's hammock, staring deep into his eyes, her mouth growing tighter and tighter until it split open to reveal a shark's sharp teeth. "You. You did this." And she grabbed the sailor by his hair and dragged him from his bed, all the way to the deck where she cast him out into the waves. "Never again will your foot touch land."

The sailor was a strong swimmer, however, and kicked his way back to the side of the ship, clutching to the wood and crying out for mercy, but when the nightwatchman stepped forward with a rope the woman turned to him with a snarl and said, "Any ship that takes this man onboard will surely sink, for a great beast will rise from the depths to devour those who help this murdering wretch." And the man stepped back, sorely afraid.

Behind him, the sailor heard the sea begin to moan, as though something came that the water itself feared. And he began to swim, panic rising in his heart until it was all he could hear, that and the strange moan of the sea.

To this day, you can hear him tap-tap-tapping against the side of your ship in the night, if you lay quiet in the stillness of the darkest time. But he is always turned away by the man on watch, who holds his lantern high, brandishes his boat-hook and tells him "You may not come aboard, sailor, for fear of she who cursed you." And the sailor cries out in his exhaustion, cries out for pity, but finds none, and swims away to find another ship to beg for mercy.
tahariel: (The Night Tower - canals and drawbridges)
I've had this scene stuck in my head for about three days, and I finally caved in and wrote it down this morning. I have to say, I'm so much more pleased with it than I thought I'd be - it seems to have come out really well!

Of course, it's for Book Three of my quartet, and I haven't finished Book One yet, which is annoying. But at least I wrote something! This is more than I've written in at least a fortnight, by the way.

So yeah, I'm quite pleased with myself today :)
tahariel: (Typewriter loves you)
God, I hate myself sometimes. Not as in 'self-loathing', but just sitting here and staring at the blinking cursor on Word, trying to think of what comes next, I have absolutely no idea what the hell I'm doing, and all I can think is that I hate my bloody brain for ditching me like this.

I probably need to sit down and have a good think about it, or brainstorm it with somebody to play soundingboard. Something is going to have to give, because I am finishing this goddamn book if it kills me.


Word count update:

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
95,042 / 120,000

Total expected wordcount has increased because I have no idea when this mother is going to goddamn end already. Hopefully I won't have to edit it down too much when I'm done so that somebody will publish it *cries a little*
tahariel: (Fandom Fucks Back)
I may or may not boycott LJ tomorrow. But considering my recent posting record, I would not expect to be posting tomorrow anyway :D

This post is just to let you all know that I have now backed up my lj as best as I can at insanejournal, same username, and to ask if anyone else also has a journal over there I should friend. I'm not planning a permanent migration or anything, but I thought - with more recent lj-drama - it would be prudent to be ready if I need to be. Tomorrow I'll do some more searching for friends etc over there, today I just set up.

Yay I did some writing today too! So now the wordcount is (drumroll please!):

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
93,666 / 100,000

It's totally going to be over 100k. Hopefully not too much over, though, or I will have to cut loads, and that will be hard. An', an', I don't wanna!

Five minutes before midnight strike deadline! Score!
tahariel: (Typewriter loves you)
When discussing what I was writing with [livejournal.com profile] katsideswide this evening:

Amy says: This sort of scene is the sort of thing I just get writing and writing. It's nice
Amy says: (of course, that makes me worry that the tough-to-write stuff is not as good, but I guess that's where editing comes in.)
Katnip says: it's important to get it down. worry about the niggly bits later
Amy says: I'll finish eventually (I hope! Or maybe it will go ON AND ON FOREVER, more and more things always happening, until i am old and creaky!)
Katnip says: wow! o_O
Katnip says: nuu! but then it shall never be published and landon's fangirl army shall never be
Amy says: and they will never write Landon/Felix invisisex stories!
Katnip says: ...invisisex?
Amy says: invisible sex
Katnip says: ...how? o_o
Amy says: well, Landon can do illusions, right? So they could have sex in public and nobody would know.
Katnip says: i could see the point with visual porn
Katnip says: oooooohhhhh
Katnip says: *clicks into place*
Katnip says: ...hell yes!
Katnip says: ...why did that never occur to me before!
Amy says: i have no idea, it seemed fairly obvious to me
Katnip says: my smut brain is obviously broken
Amy says: XD
Amy says: seriously, that is one of my big anticipations for if fanfic was ever written, that somebody will write that story
Katnip says: wow. just, wow.
Amy says: you totally want it now, don't you
Katnip says:
tahariel: (Typewriter loves you)
You know... as I keep reading I realise that my manuscript isn't as bad as all that. It's still not perfect, but not as bad as I thought.

It needs more description and more emotional contact between the protagonist and the reader, and more screentime for the romantic interest, but none of it's unfixable.

Thank God!
tahariel: (Sigh!)
You may not have noticed, but I am a very competitive person.

"The hell you say!" ...you say. (Ha ha, no, really, I know that you know. Do you know that I know that you know that I know? Well, you do now.)

Myv wanted to move back into the flat she lived in next year - it has better views, is in a quiet block, etc. I didn't - don't - really care, because all that means is that I will have to move all my stuff again, but, whatever.

Of course, as soon as I found out other people were after the same flat, we were going to win, goddammit, come hell or high water! I got really fired up and adrenaline-shaky (we got it, too.)

And don't even get me started on eBay. I get an adrenaline hit just out of fighting people out of the thing we both want at the last second. For instance, just won a lovely dress :D

It really is silly, but I suppose it's the small pleasures that make life worth living, hmm?


Today I printed out my manuscript so far. Size 11 font, 1 1/2 line spaced, right and left justified, came to 167 pages. And I started to read it, thinking, 'let's see where this is at, get motivated again.'

But... I can't help noticing everything that's wrong with it. I'm sure it improves as I wrote it, getting into practice and improving and things, but I can't feel anything for it. The emotions I should be feeling just aren't there. And it makes me worry whether or not it's actually good or not. People tell me it is, but how can I tell when I'm so blank about it?

Argh! This is just what I was talking about yesterday. It makes me so frustrated!


Feb. 25th, 2008 10:29 pm
tahariel: (Venice)
I'm having such trouble writing at the moment. It's like wading through molasses in lead-lined boots... just going really, really slowly. For whatever reason I'm just not motivated at the moment, and I can't convince myself that what I do manage to write is any good, that it's not boring and pointless.

I think the problem is probably that I'm in a transitional part, where I need to travel between big plot points, and I had a little while where I didn't write at all because of busyness and procrastination, and now it's getting hard to start again. But it's so frustrating, and I spend more time being frustrated about it than I do writing.

I'm thinking that I might buy a new ream of paper, print off the whole thing so far and just read it through, see where I am. Try and get myself going again. And maybe buy a writing book - they always get me going and enthusiastic.

In fact, the writing book idea is a good one. I'll do that, then.

I just... I'm so close to finishing, or at least I feel like I am even if I have maybe another 20,000 words to write or something. I really, really want to finish it and have a complete first draft, and it's just not happening. I want to scream, it feels like there's so much pressure in my chest trying to burst out, like my ribcage is going to split open or something and shower irritation everywhere.

I really, really need to get over this rough patch.

Word count!

Feb. 2nd, 2008 07:48 am
tahariel: (Typewriter loves you)
As of the day before yesterday:

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
80,126 / 100,000

tahariel: (Typewriter loves you)
I was planning on doing some writing on this long, lovely free afternoon, but first time got away from me and now I'm not in the mood at all - I feel much too hasty, like I'm in a rush with nothing to do.

On the other hand, I have been having a lot of planning thoughts, especially on the train back to Liverpool yesterday, and so I actually have rough plans for each of the other three books in the quartet, assuming I ever finish this one.

Which, with my mind acting up like this, is getting frustratingly worrying! I just read back the last page or so, and I feel like it's too much of a rushed pace, too much dialogue, but when I'm like this I read back my own stuff like that anyway, so who knows?

Argh! Frustration!


Jan. 23rd, 2008 02:54 pm
tahariel: (The Night Tower - canals and drawbridges)
One of the things I really love Myv for is when she'll sit down with me to discuss a plotline, make some great suggestions, and generally play Devil's Advocate until I've somehow ended up with a stonking plot and only need to work on the details. We have a seriously good creative connection when it comes to stuff like that - she gets what I want to go for, and helps me get there.

So today, after a while of floundering around going 'I have no idea what to do! Every idea I have is a wash/rinse/repeat of the first book! Oh my God I suck!', I finally am actually working up a very general plot chart type thing for the second book in my as-yet-unnamed series :)

Tentative title (at least until I think of something else): The Blood Rose. I think it might be a little overdramatic though, what do you think? I like the three-word format, the+adjective+noun, to follow on from The Night Tower, but I'd like some opinions, if you could.

(ETA: Having just done an Amazon search on 'The Blood Rose', I can also say that the two words 'blood' and 'rose' are in so many book titles you wouldn't believe, so it's going to have to be something else. I want it to stand out in a search, not be hidden so anyone trying to buy it can't find it.)

(ETA 2: What do you think of 'The Rose Vault' or 'The Rose Vaults'? I like to have a title in my head when I write something, you see, so I'm thinking about it now.)

So basically I'm happy, anyway. I wanted to have some idea of where I'm going with the next one before I finished the first one, so I could point the right way. I'm pretty happy with the ideas. They just need thinking on.
tahariel: (The Night Tower - canals and drawbridges)
As of right now:

Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
75,429 / 100,000

Obviously 100,000 words is a total guestimate, but it's the maximum people will usually take for a first novel, so I'm using it as a filler number, which means that I am now 3/4 of the way through my first draft!

I'm getting there! I'm writing again now that exams are over and I have time again, I'm booking myself in to a one-day writing course on Rewriting and Editing at the university, and I really feel like I'm starting to get to the wrapping-up-plot-threads-for-the-conclusion point, which obviously rules. (I also just got to plant the first real clue as to the identity of the killer, which had to remain secret up until now. Awesome!)

So I'm really happy!
tahariel: (TV loves you)
I haven't been posting a lot lately (I know I've said that before) so I thought I'd give you a little rundown of my day, that sort of thing. It really consists of two elements:

a) finishing my goddamn stats assignment that is due in tomorrow
b) watching Chuck, which is an AWESOME show.

Chuck is totally my new fandom. I had run out of fic to read, and this should hopefully solve my problem, so voila!

Mostly it is awesome because Adam Baldwin, the guy who used to play Jayne in Firefly, is in it and is awesome. But also, it has strong, developed female characters! And it's lots of crazy fun! And the main character is a cute geek! And there is lots of crazy fun!

(You should totally watch it if you're not already.)

...that's pretty much all I've done today, anyway. I have one more exam to go (this Wednesday afternoon, Management of Concomitant Strabismus, two hours) and then I'm done. So, tomorrow I hand in this paper and start revising for ORTH 215. Luckily I have already written up all my notes for it so it's just reading and rereading, really (I am SO GLAD I finally got down to revising over Christmas. It has saved my life.)

Also! The day before the day before yesterday I finally managed to get some more writing done! Only 750 words or so, but during an exam period I'd say that's pretty damn good, yeah?
tahariel: (Default)
I have been TERRIBLE at posting here lately, I promise to try and make up for it!

New Years Resolution: I will finish my novel and send it to agents by the end of the year.

I'm only making the one resolution, so hopefully *fingers crossed*

Okay, I know I've been terrible at posting here, but I really have nothing to say, except that you totally have to watch this video, it is just SO AWESOME:

Whee, first embedded video ever!
tahariel: (The Night Tower - canals and drawbridges)
I've been thinking about something Myv has said to me, about the way I work and how much work I do. She says that, at least at the moment, I'm not taking a degree, I'm writing a novel - and to some extent I think she's right. I'm not very good at doing things I don't want to do, and too good at doing the things I do. I need to find a better balance between the two and get work done.

...I still desperately want to crack on with my novel, though.
tahariel: (The Night Tower - canals and drawbridges)
Another 597 words written yesterday... a step forward through molasses, it feels like, and now I've got to free up the other foot for the next step. (See you in a month)

However, what is good/bad is that I keep having little flashes of inspiration for the following books. I went past this pub when I was on the bus which was called 'The Rose Vaults', which got me thinking of something to use for the second book, and last night I had this really bizarre dream that, weirdly, bookends so nicely with my two-sentence summary/idea of the third book that I've actually written up a summary/pitch for it this morning before I could forget it. This sounds good, right? Except for the fact that I actually have to finish the first book before I can use any of this! Argh!

This is the pitch, if you're interested... )
I really want to go to Venice this summer and do 'research'...


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